Fiction & Poetry for a wondering heart

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Fiction Short: If Only I Was Valuable

(Alan)

I never expected a happy ending for myself.

I never did anything in my life that made me happy.

I wasn’t married and I didn’t have kids.

I was a drunk.

A nobody to society. I guess.

But as I heard the screams next door, I knew…

I knew my moments were running short.

I couldn’t scale off time.

There were no clocks in sight.

I was shocked to see around me.

They had stitched my lips shut.

I should’ve just went home.

I should’ve skipped the bar for once.

Who knows where I would have been then.

This dungeon cell was cold.

I was kept only with my underwear.

I wondered what the woman did in the other room, to be caught.

What was her life before?

Her ongoing screams didn’t tell me nothing.

The men in robes chose her over me.

I wish they would have gotten my ending over with.

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Story under my 2nd pen name: Kamari L.

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Author’s Notes: Kamari L. will be the pen name I go exclusive with Amazon with. I want to fit in the world of kindle as well. the best benefits for kindle, is to write for the kindle unlimited market — where tons of users already have monthly subscriptions.

This model will allow my work to be completely free to users, and give them instant access to anything I publish — DAY ONE. A market that I have been neglecting for some time now, misunderstanding that there are readers who crave literature…over there as well.

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Poetry Pack: This Side Of Your Mind

I wanna dream about you every night
Otherwise, I don’t wanna be asleep

~ Sakari

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You want more rest in my arms
And I’m restless without you
Doesn’t this sound like we’re connected

~ Sakari

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When the candles finally go out
I’ll light some more for you
Different scents and different signals this time

~ Sakari

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You’re used to being on the bottom
You’re used to being on all fours
Tonight you’re on top
I believe in you

~ Sakari

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You’re upset
Let me make it up to you
You’re conflicted
Let me decide for you
I can make your mind up for you
I can cancel out the extra noise

~ Sakari

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I’m not expecting anything
The lights go out when we have the time
They can stay on in the meantime
I’ll sex you to a lit room

~ Sakari

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Keep benching all those guys
In your inbox, baby
Imma do nothing but reward you
When all is said and done

~ Sakari

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You’re willing to wait
I’m the one that’s impatient
But you look so impressive
Why do I have to wait

~ Sakari

Your First (Outerlude)
I swear on my heart, I want to be the first of your everything
I want to be the first one to never leave you
The first one to wake up in the morning, searching for you
The first one to notice when you can’t sleep at night
The first one to calm you down with kisses on your chest
The first one to catch your tears in my hand
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I want to be the first to explore
your imagination

~ Sakari

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Empath

My 4-part mini poetry series, Empath, is available now on Amazon. Still under my pen name, Sakari Lacross, this is a wide pen name — so there is no exclusivity.

The book is available now for 99 cents, with 60 pages of content. Poems that continue to grip at different sections of the heart.

Empath